harllows!

I can't get over you .

2011-08-01T18:21:00.002+08:00

我知道故事不會太曲折
我總會遇見壹個什麽人
陪我過沒有了她的人生
成家立業之類的等等
她做了她覺得對的選擇
我只好祝福她真的對了
愛不到我最想要愛的人
誰還能要我怎樣呢
我愛的人不是我的愛人
她心裏每壹寸都屬于另壹個人
她真幸福幸福得真殘忍
讓我又愛又恨她的愛怎麽那麽深
我愛的人她已有了愛人
從他們的眼神說明了我不可能
每當聽見她或他說"我們"
就像聽見愛情永恒的嘲笑聲

她做了她覺得對的選擇
我只好祝福她真的對了
愛不到我最想要愛的人
誰還能要我怎樣呢
我愛的人不是我的愛人
她心裏每壹寸都屬于另壹個人
她真幸福幸福得真殘忍
讓我又愛又恨她的愛怎麽那麽深
我愛的人她已有了愛人
從他們的眼神說明了我不可能
每當聽見她或他說"我們"
就像聽見愛情永恒的嘲笑聲
每當聽見她或他說"我們"
就像聽見愛情永恒的嘲笑聲

If you could read this .. I'm suffering very badly :'( You are the second girl that i really give my all , but i guess . It's hopeless .. I LOVE YOU .

Stop hesitating !

2011-02-16T19:10:00.003+08:00

I can do anything as long as I'm alive !
Read all this lyrics
all for you !

Yeah Hey Yeah Yeah
想到了第一次见到你
你有一种奇怪的魔力
我感觉到了自己偷偷想靠近你
想到了第二次见到你
感觉我并没那么高兴
因为我发现自己和你的距离

这是爱情还是你太美丽
让我作出不可思议的事情
我只知道我要看你开心
我什么都愿意只要能够靠近你

我只好把我想说的话都放在心里
因为我只想要你开心
我知道我会辛苦也会难过
但我什么都愿意
不在乎狂风暴雨不管你在那里

我知道你和你的男孩有多么的甜蜜
所以我才静静守着你
每一次看他紧紧拉着你手我眼泪不停的流
也只好默默退后
我什么都没说
静静忍住痛

想到了第一次见到你
你有一种奇怪的魔力
我感觉到了自己偷偷想靠近你
想到了第二次见到你
感觉我并没那么高兴
因为我发现自己和你的距离这是爱情还是你太美丽
我像是着了迷只要能够靠近你

我只好把我想说的话都放在心里
因为我只想要你高心
我知道我会辛苦也会难过
但我什么都愿意
不在乎狂风暴雨不管你在那里

我知道你和你的男孩有多么的甜蜜
所以我才静静守着你
每一次看他紧紧拉着你手我眼泪不停的流
也只好默默退后
我什么都没说
静静忍住痛

我只好把我想说的话都放在心里
因为我只想要你高心
我知道我会辛苦也会难过
但我什么都愿意
不在乎狂风暴雨不管你在那里

我知道你和你的男孩有多么的甜蜜
所以我才静静守着你
每一次看他紧紧拉着你手我眼泪不停的流
也只好默默退后
我什么都没说
静静忍住痛
Hey Hey

我不配。

2010-10-31T13:51:00.003+08:00

Finally, end of year has ended.My effort for everything has finally paid off,has also overcome burden of stress. You had alr changed.. not the one i used to know,i really really miss my lower sec life badly ,scouts sucks. nothing to post much just that i had not post a single thing for month .oh ya,most importantly this holiday i gonna get a guitar string as my guitar now is botak =) gonna write a song for my mum for the next mother day! =)

Confused.

*hi bye day

2010-08-18T21:13:00.002+08:00

early in the morning 6o clock,
some kind of good people given me attitude that i "like" the most
in the form of anger,i make my hi bye day like this

luckily,i were able to meet lee jun early
as i does not want to stuck at home hearing dog bark
went out stomping my foot,while having the eye like fire effect
so freaking fed-u.

morning reach ziyi on phone,
i ask her"where are you?"
she replied"i'm here"
-.-,kinda hilarious lor haha

reach school,talk and was told by jonathan that our dear mrs wee
called up his parent telling he is lazy,WTH he is putting effort,asshole!
followed by fu qiang,she also told me that our dearly mrs wee call her parent up too
don't care that cher lah.

chemistry lesson teacher never come i sit with jamie <3 watch toGETher until very very shoik! haha everyone of my friend makes me happy and got the mood back..

thanks everyone,i love you guys!!
end my post here ,happy birthday riyanto celebrating with YOG -.-
i gave him sweet 15 punch =)

A little too not over you..

2010-08-08T17:16:00.007+08:00

Tell me why you're so hard to forget
Don't remind me, I'm not over it
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you, not over you..

Aren't memories supposed to fade?
What's wrong with my heart?
Shake it off, let it go
Didn't think it'd be this hard

stay over at my mother house for one night,surely it's relax enough..
no stress over dere,everything seems so right to me,my mind is free from quarreling.
that is the only moment that i could forget who am i,one that has tons and tons of trouble in mind.
i like the stay over,it's all thanks to my sister
it's her birth day party,haha my brother and i gave her wine.
and wish her happy sweet 21 =)
slept at one waking up at 10..
feeling great till the moment i have to go home ,where the stress came back..
blog at home,telling how i fell.
end here,cherish parent!

I used to be lovedrunk.

2010-07-23T19:10:00.002+08:00

i used to be love drunk
and now it's over
love you forever
forever is over..

blah blah blah..
english test,i might fail with dull colour =(
after school,go general office help jonathan give the acknowledgment slip and he go home while me and lee jun stay back to watch hongkah got talent..
seriously i felt that some of the singer is really awesome,haha next year would be me singing man,lols.

recently,too much thing happen in my life,but i gonna climb back again..
i gonna end here.

No promises.

my heart live for study,end for loving.

2010-07-20T19:52:00.002+08:00

u don't need to feel guity because it's my choice and my fate to be a failure..
don't worry,i will still be ur friend and i will remember i was once in love with u..
a deeply one..
thanks my friend and people,i'm ok =)

I think 2 years is enough,time to add a full stop.

2010-07-19T19:35:00.004+08:00

sorry if u think all my post had been a depress one
but i have no choice because it's time to let u know that 2 years is enough,time for a full stop.
currently,i feeling lots and lots or maybe tons and tons of elephant weighing in side my heart,super heavy.
this time round,i'm not gonna say i will give up using just plainly my mouth,now i'm serious and i'm gonna use will in it.
WTF is happening today?
mrs wee call up parent wanna meet mr ong
i tell u this will cause my CCA teacher to disrespect me
i tell you,scouts is my life and my life is scouts once it is broken,i have totally no life.. nothing.
ANW,i thanks sherlyn to lend me her listening ear.

watch despicable me,rating 2/5
too boring for me,but it cheer me up,before that,i'm super moody

i end here,bye..

Another piece of memories.

2010-07-17T20:58:00.003+08:00

haha,is'n this photo cool? it's taken on jurong primary few month back,memories.

I have kept another piece of memories in scouts..
i found a nice song!chori chori,a indian song is nice to sing.haha i will sing it once i have lesson.
Today,i woke up at 6.00 in the morning where i have to report school at 09.00.It's the lightning fault,it is very bright.i woke up and bush my teeth use computer watch twilight and get ready to kick some ass!
first match:volley ball,jurong sec tai co win by 1 mark 6:7
second match:sand castle,dint really brought enough tool,lose! but we enjoy our self
third match:frisbee,i was not in it,loss? haha
fourth match:telematch,we won fuhua by a bit haha it's enjoying =)

took lots of photo but it's not with me i would upload it when i got the picture

If i'm gonna die tommorow.

2010-07-14T21:25:00.001+08:00

Today i went MacDonald and saw Jamie by coincidence
cough all the way*cough* *cough*
Bengteck,my brother come..
we talk and he ask me a question,
if u know u are gonna die soon,what is the last three thing u will do

1st)i would hug and tell her i love her followed by a first kiss and ending by a last kiss i stealed her first kiss and end my first kiss =) i don't care,by force also must do!
2nd)i would run all over westside to find my best brother, leejun and all.
i will give den another hug and followed by a thanks for my companion in this few years!
3rd)i would hail a cab to north side find my mother, hug tightly,kiss her cheek and tell her how i regret not being with her i love you,mum!If i were to choose i will still wanna be your son my next life..

omg i felt tears in my eye when i wrote this,thanks for reading =)
AEM today..

end here =)

happy birthday,jamie chua min yeeeeee!

2010-07-08T22:01:00.005+08:00

happy birthday to you,
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to youuuu
happy birthday yo you~

you are 15th years old
and this song will follow you for another 5 years,10 years,50year or maybe to the day u left this world.And this song might make you angry or make you sad or obviously make you feel happy!is'n it a nice song?

just like marikita -.-haha
thanks the creator and editor of those song =)

-restless day-

went school talk awhile,sian!
go scout where funs begin!
today shoud command for sec 1,sigh..
they might be beat us few years time,i can assure!
i command until my trout really arh fuuuu yooooo sayang! dry-like salted fish!
went ice ka-chang after that.. the first mouthful is the most awesome!
after that lepak down the voiddeck with amirul,siyuan and ahbunk nazry
talk alot den suddenly jump topic till pontianak =(
nazry said these for atleast 6time lols!
he told me about the horse dance the kena process all stuff.
make me feel scared ,goosebumps .
went home have my small dinner and blog~~

eh,friend!
u grown up! by one =)
that also means that you matured more,
also getting ic soon.
u know why i like you? i mean friend?
i like u bcause u got the nicest voice ever
i like you because u provide sweets
i like you because u teach me things i don't know
i like you because u are beautiful
i like you because u are pretty
i like you because u are sexy
i like you because u irritating
i like you because u accepted my cookies although u dk
i like you because u gace me that look when i look into your eye
i can't really elaborate how much i like you but i just like you for who u are and i like you because i hate you
i like you because i love you!!

ohk end my long long post here !!! bbyebye

happy birthday!

2010-07-08T22:01:00.001+08:00

maybe it's true,i can't live without you.

2010-07-02T20:08:00.003+08:00

hai yA! i'm back from school holiday!
back with a change mind set to study den next holiday den talk about ar ji pa lang.
i really wanna work hard to strive for EOY =)my goals is to make sure i don't retain and get into the same class as her!

today,lesson pernormal.our class got serious bastard problem -.- firdaus,fadris,zi xuan,arvin,jonathan,riyanto... and more aiya, easy to say that all our boy from 3n1 except kirk -.- and maybe guo xiang haha..
went jurong point get bag den talk talk lo =)
i found a trade mark!
it may be trueee-uh i can't live without you and maybe twooo-uh is better den one~

haha irritating trademark! =)

end my post here
btw, i like thee photo above! supers=cool manx! i go girl toilet take photo while eating rubbish haha =)
oh somemore, denise today very very good lah!!!

HUH LAGI LAH SIAL! =)

karate!!!!! me.

2010-06-23T19:32:00.002+08:00

http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=841881111&ref=sgm#!/notes/fen-xiang-sharing/yi-ge-nu-hai-dui-nan-hai-de-ai/422647042136

go read it.. it's nice but is written in chinese hope u guys can understand =)
karate kid is so damn hell nice
watch with vivien,nazry and lee jun =)
was quite funny the show and the atmosphere
rain heavily like cats and doggy =)

end my post here=)
tomorrow,i gotta rock n roll!
i gonna meet my mother =)

if you hate me,just hate me to the core!

2010-06-21T20:20:00.002+08:00

idk what to write today..
she is again gonna go overseas
this time round,i feel nothing..
i don't know what's happening to me this few day..
aggressive,moody,tired,rebellious and irritating ..
mood is'n that good, i miss my mother...
hope that i can meet her soon

I saw primary school mates today alot of time
i go jurong point meet vivien do donation draw at huayi dere
most of the money goes to her,haha i earned for fun =)
slack after that
on the way in the bus i saw another vivian, primary school de
before that at jusrong point i also saw en ning and ying xiu all change luh =)
sian!

i'm fucking useless
my first time scolding on blog lah!
end here luh!

stop all suffering,get some gathering.

2010-06-19T17:52:00.002+08:00

Now it seems to me that love of some kind is the only possible explanation of the extraordinary amount of suffering that there is in the world.

i am here to blog again..
sherlyn bo jio me go wei jian house visit him
i know the reason not because of her
is because of another her..
i assume luh
if u try to avoid me,try harder if not please stop..
anw, i don't wanna talk abt those unhappy thing =)
webcam with sherlyn haha quite funny and fun
thanks sherlyn for making my happy feeling come back =)
the whole day i stay at home camp with the computer
ya like this lor =)
You can shed tears that she is gone,
or you can smile because she has lived.
You can close your eyes and pray that she'll come back,
or you can open your eyes and see all she's left.
Your heart can be empty because you can't see her,
or you can be full of the love you shared.
You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday,
or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.
You can remember her only that she is gone,
or you can cherish her memory and let it live on.
You can cry and close your mind,
be empty and turn your back.
Or you can do what she'd want:
smile, open your eyes, love and go on.

end post here next time den post =)

Is this coincidence or a myth?

2010-06-18T20:12:00.005+08:00

My title is funny ya?i have really some great secret to share but i had alr say secret so SORRY reader =) is to be shared among my brother,and this secret is something that make me confuse and fear with, till now i appreciate nazry for listening what i say today and i will find time to tell lee jun too.. =) it's really really suffocating me since the day i got this huge secret
anw,why am i so worried about this?! nth to worry =)

I drag my lazy feet off the beg and went brushing with one sleepyface =)
study followed by suft net and went out to find nazry to do donation draw without vivien=)

talk alot,he told me about OBS i felt so shit that i dint get the chance to go -.-
ohk,came back around 6.25 and sherlyn called me ask me where am i as i msg telling her i at toh guan wanna meet her.nevermind.. too bad she end her npcc late and strange thing,she ask me what is ***_*****_***** and i was thinking why the hell she ask this? -.-
ohk i end my post here good bye!

sherlyn,this is love =)

2010-06-05T17:04:00.002+08:00

I got a sad story to share with everyone here..
and this story is to delicate to all my friends.
there i goes...

A guy and a girl were speeding at OVA 100km/hon a deserted road on a motorcycle..
GIRL:slow down,were going too fast,I'm scared!!!
BOY:c'mon,don't worry i know what I'm doing.ya having fun right?
GIRL:no.. please stop,I'm really scared!!!
BOY:then tell me ya love me
GIRL:I LOVE YOU!!now please stop down
BOY:give me a hug
*girl hugs him*
BOY:can u help me out here?take my helmet off & put it on you?it's bugging me.
IN THE PAPER THE NEXT DAY..
A MOTORCYCLE HAS CRASHED INTO A BUILDING DUE TO BRAKE FAILURE,2 PEOPLE FOUND BUT 1 SURVIVED..
TRUTH..
HALF WAY DOWN THE ROAD,THE GUY REALIZED THAT HIS BRAKE BROKE...
BUT HE DIDN'T WANT TO LET THE GIRL KNOW ..
INSTEAD,HE HAD HER SAY SHE LOVED HIM,FELT HER HUG 1 LAST TIME...
THEN HAD HER WEAR HIS HELMET SO SHE WOULD LIVE,EVEN THOUGH THAT MEANT HE WOULD DIE...

THAT'S TRUE LOVE!!!

你回来的第七天♥

2010-05-28T18:02:00.005+08:00

HAHAHA , lets play a game , guess who i am ;lol :D . 但我爱上你的时候，我就赋予你傷害我的權利了. 喜歡是一種感觉，跟她的身份無關！喜歡一個人應該是單純的喜歡她這個人，喜歡她的一切，包括他的缺点 , 哈哈 , yes its from my blog ;confirm nobody know ,sad. nvm , many people will might think why am i updating his blog and writing this stupid title , a little not stupid but touching for us but for him its not stupid , LOL . The small little boy is watching television and I AM TOO watching drama and he wanted me to help him update so i waste my 45min , ok 42min bah helping him to update . Actually , i can help him write many touching stuff , but its not me that love her . haha i am pro in writing touching stuff one wor . HAHAHAHAHAHAHA , you know why i keep saying HAHAHAHHA? BECAUSE I AM A VERY FRIENDLY AND 开朗 PERSON , HAHAHA YEH . I treat this as my blog update oso bah . LOL . BYEBYEBYEBYE , HAHAHAHAHAHAHA . I AM HAHA哥哥 or 荔枝哥哥? HAHAHA oppss . OKAY , i edit hor . NEXT TIME AR , let start a touching story competition , then we listen to yiruma - love me , see which story you all got cry . OKAY ? Confirm my story larh , junwei story boring one . OKAY LARH . BYEBYE :D LOVE ME . I AM CRYING WHEN READING THIS STORY , NOOO . LOL , shyt when i become so lame . NOOOOO == :D BYEEE

3hr later

i am back to update.
and the story begin with quarrel..
again it's quarrel,can't the word quarrel just get outta of my life?
must i live with the word quarrel?And seriously,without you i really can sink
i realize the term important to me and what's really make me set off.=)
father just can't enter my world neither could i enter his world..

go temple pray>rot at home

that's all heard that my brother is going guan zhou,wth y all close people keep going over sea? lols

7th day without your presence
last day without your presence
and will be my last continue blog post =)

没有你的第六天♥

2010-05-27T17:43:00.003+08:00

Today,i get to talk to her..the one and only her,haha although it's awhile at least i know she is doing fine..=)she say she cried yesterday,hahas.wanna buy for me gongli poster lols.=X

went school,get really suck result 37/40(class position)
talk with Mrs wee about my family and talk to her like friend
went home and saw vivien,she look at my report card,it's suck!
went home straight,psp break down again siao!
show my father result,was surprise he din't scold me,that he talk properly saying me to work hard in next term

第六天没有你的日子。。
第一次有了思念的感觉。。
第一千一百一十想着你短短的七天。。

good bye =)
come back soon.

没有你的第五天♥

2010-05-26T18:30:00.002+08:00

i really really can't take it...
i miss you that much..so much that even i dream i dream of you.. =)
so i ask myself"is that a joke?"
joke that i fall for you,and replied myself nope=) it's definitely a fact.
i can live without you,but i can't breathe without you..
i realise that only for now,
how much i really care/love/hate/like/admire you..

Today i went to AEM,not boring after all.i went to the canteen and only then i realise there is a koufu down there,haha was quite surprise actually.

The 5th day w/o your presence/existence..
my brain is full of your "SAVE" image =)

没有你的第四天♥

2010-05-25T18:05:00.002+08:00

Hey,was-sup guys!
know what?sherlyn online yesterday,at first is anqi i chat,but she didn't reply =.=
after that sherlyn online i chat with her haha she told me that shanghai now very cold..take care,my friends.
Today,i went school like a retards as the class population has only less then 10
this really sucks!!
went home straight w/o listening my psp,bo batt.. haikal play all the day.
I'm lost without you guys...
and wei jian,although i didn't heard your result,i still hope that u are fine ohk?

the 4th day w/o your existence/presence...

想你的第三天♥

2010-05-24T19:14:00.008+08:00

Today,i went to school alone..without ziyi neither her sister..
i went to school per normal and waited for you just like how i waited you for class
and i know,things won't change after all.Maybe u might be having fun and shanghai.
i am always thinking this question,"what are you doing,are you enjoying yourself or you suffering there?"haha nevermind i will wait for you..

this seven days seems to be time freeze,i hope that now time fly faster. =D

3rd day without your presence/existence...

想你的第二天♥

2010-05-23T14:57:00.002+08:00

i woke up at 7plus go market.. quarrel again... today,no more ppl can make my day like usual again..my mind went blank,thinking that i will on my msn and wait for u to online,hhaha just as to remember u have go some where far away.later gonna go out and
somehow,i would still be missing you guys ohk?haha =D

想你的第一天♥

2010-05-22T21:17:00.002+08:00

hopefully i could update my blog this seven days,haha.today we send off all our bestie to shanghai.. at the airport,i thought they would come at 7.45 cause weijian say 7.45 they go alr,haha.This is the very first time i am sending ppl off to another country
with a feeling of sad..although at there i was joking,but in fact i'm just hiding my fear..this is only the first day,but i felt a very very great distance.The gap between you and me widened. u cried and liping call me to 安慰 u i also dunnoe wad should i do? is between ur mother and u as i had alr know u comfirm would cry de i hope u will have fun there and lastly take care of urself..

go scout after that talk alot things with nazry..i felt that we got endless conversation!!

first day without your existence

一半。(half)

2010-05-20T20:23:00.002+08:00

hey..welcome me back from camp all dudes and babes,update because i am still on camp mode haha.i love this song,it's from jerry yan this song really meant alot to me..

i Been waiting for that someone for such a long time
one sided love is so very lonely
My window through Spring, Summer, Autumn and Winter
Only the wind passes by
Love deeply yet how deep is it
I don’t know
Your throat and my heart have weakened
I feel the pain even after listening to a song
But I didn’t speak of it to anyone
The seat on my right, the pillow on my right
Have been empty for such a long time
Waiting only for you
It’s all because I’ve finally understood
Without your love,I am only but one half
Not crying, not laughing
I don’t understand for whom do I work hard for
No one can take your place
One half of a circle
I stubbornly wait on
Waiting for the wind to bring you here..

Off to venture.

2010-05-16T21:36:00.002+08:00

got to kick some ass over jalan bateria
shall update more detail after camp

today i broke a promise to my leader
i am sorry to both nazry and suffian psps

Drifted to the past.

2010-05-15T22:01:00.002+08:00

Today was a happy day,can't give relevant detail wanna know?ask me personally =D
anyway,today i go out with my mother=D we went to jurong point only to get stuff
we talk a lot of thing about life.we went to the past where i remember when i am small,we often do lots of things and stuff nice~
edit next time =D

Slippery when wet,miss when love.

2010-05-13T17:47:00.007+08:00

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i can't be negative anymore,friend reminded me of being positive instead of the other way round.today was quite dead,i haven't told my parent's about my result of getting border line for all...i dun give a crap about the mark anymore.i shall start with the topic,nothing to express i just gonna say today i camp in front of the note book for more den 8 hours

and yes,weijian i deserve what i have,I DESERVE IT!true enough=D.oh ya!i just cut my hair,wanna take a look?show u at school.shall end my post here.

The chronicles of life and death:Failure.

2010-05-12T17:38:00.003+08:00

This song suit my feeling lost,alone..
i am failure..
Fail in studies
Fail in relationship
Fail to please my siblings
Fail to be a filial son
Fail to make you smile
Fail to speak to somebody
Fail to give u security
Fail to give you looks
Fail to give up...

my heart...so heavy i just want to pierce straight into my heart make the "weight"just flow away...if only there's some one i can talk to..
ex-maid is gone,forever gone...

2010-05-12T17:36:00.001+08:00

so wrong,it's right.

2010-05-11T21:08:00.003+08:00

Today is the end of exams,this my first time updating a post so early.After POA,me and friends went to lala land i went home first..with lee jun,coming with one broken promise.change and went out fast fast go k box have fun there.Although i admit that this time round don't have the environment like bugis top one,we sang lots of song some making me good,some making me feel so horrible and some make me so bloody pathetic,in some way,i just felt so touch,so sad and so lame together with flashback.sherlyn is a good singer, i like her vocal the way she adjust her pitches,although her voice is'n unique but she was able to connect with the audience.oh ya,friends said my singing was not bad,haha was very please with it =),thanks.after-all i think that today is a fun day but my mind is still on examination mode,worried with my result.

i'm confuse over something that really can't get this out of my mind

......i love you =)

If you love something, let it go. If it comes back to you, its yours forever. If it dosent, then it was never meant to be.

six feet under the stars.

2010-05-07T21:17:00.003+08:00

update for purpose.examination was quite okay well,i guess i might not get the result i am aiming to get.after tough paper,went to library with 0.3% of hongkah lite, girls and boys.after that we go mac>park>talk alot.

i knew myself better.

negative:i am a person who is very naive
try to get close with people i am around with.my bad habit kue sio.
abit noisy.
have quite a bad temper,vent angers on people around me.
feel guilty very easily.
sensitive over relationship,easily jealous.
positive:a person that can get along well.
cheer up people when they are down.
humorous guy.
wants people to catch up with the group.

haha,thats wad i know about myself.Kelly is a very good counselor,denise speaks facts,sherlyn is a boy(jk)she is a good listener,this three are my best best best friend after all. =)lee jun is not my friend,neither he is my good friend but he is my brother from different mother.i love them all and wanted to threat them better then how i treat myself =)

The west side of my life.

2010-04-20T20:49:00.003+08:00

The courage to show,
to letting you know,
i've never felt so much in love before,
and once again i'm thinking about,
taking the easy way out

but if i let you go,
i will never know
What my life would be
Holding you close to me
Will I ever see
You smiling back at me,
How will I know?
If I let you go ...

Night after night
I hear myself saying
Why can't this feeling just fade away?
There's no one like you ...
You speak to my heart...
It's such a shame we're worlds apart ...

i'm too shy to ask,i'm too proud to lose
but sooner or late i gotta choose....

Today is a nice day,went to school was about to late,rush in with denise laughing.
maths:expected to get back result,get back nothing.
PE:excuse from doing physical thing
social study:fool around
recess:usual
PC:go hall watch ppl act
CME:teacher scold scold whole class
English:oral

after school slack at canteen,learn guitar from one sec 3 guy ,fun learn alot.
got the egg decoration,anyhow draw,quite nice,but on the head it crack.

thought through.

2010-04-07T20:55:00.001+08:00

Jonathan.i am updating this post,for the sake of you am sure u would read this post because i would lift it stagnant for maybe 2weeks?Jonathan,we knew each other for 3 years.. 3years of friendship.since the first day of school,we knew each other.we naturally hit it off.i admit i whack u for no reason(last time) but since the day i set off with u,i know u are the person i will stuck with for the whole secondary life.till the day we graduate,i hope that we would say to each other :ehh,we grow up le.although times after times,i am very vexed,disappointed over you but i seriously appreciate a friend like you.this morning would be a day that i would remember it maybe in my whole entire life.i gave u my full trust and yet u lied to me again and again,forget it.i am not the kind of ppl whom will记恨.. today i din't get to talk to u
i always expected u would come up and say:"hey can we talk things out?"but i am always the person whom start the forgiving topic u remember the sherlyn things during sec 1 i will nbr forget.u told me u were regretted for chosing to tell sherlyn the truth haha well by that time i had alr regards u as my friend jamie make us friends again and i was happy that finally we are back to friend.

NOW,I REALISED THAT UR ACTION PROOF ME WRONG BECAUSE IF I HAD GAVE U THE MORE TRUST AT THE START(YESTERDAY)U MIGHT NOT HAD LIED TO ME THIS MORNING.I AM WILLING TO SAY SAY SORRY BY ACTION!

Sara,sayonara..

2010-03-26T19:35:00.002+08:00

i guess everybody would be puzzled who is Sara,why sayoanra?it's all because she is aunty(maid).well,i don't treat her as a ordinary maid i treat her like my best best friend.when what came up to my mind,my first person to share is definitely her.oh crap!!!i gonna miss her!!!!!she taught me wad is respect she taught me everything that that "mother" never teach.she is like my second mother,when i am down,she cheer me upwhen i did the wrong things she scold me. =)that's what i llik her about
in future,i got nobody to talk anymore.shit!

today after school,i actually wanted to go home.then lee jun they all from my house hut talk until vending machine until lift until zi yi house LOLs so funny.we chit chat long long play stupid games plan by jonathan.we left around 4.40 i go back home and i start my last talk with sara.well i will miss her!!!!!!!!how?how?

you can trust me on what i say!

2010-03-18T20:38:00.003+08:00

Woke up use computer watch movie den after that text Vivian ask her to come out do job week together den at bus stop jamie tell me she at jurong point i so happy den walk around Jurong point like idiot hoping to see her.den i tell vivian i wwait at kopitiam.
Jamie told me that she fake me lah she not at JP,lols make me until veri gong.
went do jobweek with vivian so fun.she scared dog like i scared bird nest like that.lols i find it funny den after awhile we go find wet socks and the rest this little si hui go sit on my chest in the bus as if no ppl in the bus like that.lols
after industry,we take bus back jurone east den vivian and me go eat japanese food lols cost a bomb tomorrow gonna earn it back comfirm!!

so...
i will end my post here
good byes.

maybe it's just me

2010-03-17T20:57:00.005+08:00

boring day.
sit the whole day doing nothing sms jamie in early morning.
she told me that she is having her tuition so i dun disturb.
loggin msn continue our conversation dere,she make my day again.

out of sianness,i open my web cam and start finding a new profile pic.
den when i want to take,one whole bunch of bird flew past.
i look over dere and dats how i found my new profile pic haha funny

thats all going to sleep soon.tmr will be hard day for me

aiming to get 200 dollar tmr

back from camp =)

2010-03-16T08:04:00.003+08:00

hellos!!back from a huge camp haha hardly sleep in the camp quite tiring.me,ain,nazry,melvin,siyuan we make the night activities call night survivor we suppous to frighten our scouts member mind before we can get started so we tell them about the ghost history about this hong kah.fun den all of them all scared scared den we start walking kerwin so scared from act act untill now become gay nid to grab my hand.he say he veri scared den i say ai ya if u scared just hold my hand lah nthing gonna happen den ending the endpoint that time,i act kena ghost go in my body den when kerwin was holding my hand,i act out alot of crap eerie so sounds and action.they were all stun.and this stupid girl sabrina thought tiger balm can help den go anyhow just press it on my mouth.lols i was like hello is tiger balm that useful?haha after that i admit that was an act,vivian giv me high 5 in the face haha thanks!the next day after camp,me,ziyi,fuqiang,yifei,yafei,anqi,Jonathan,leejun and si bei jian we go sing ktv sing untill veri mad haha lik that lo den go eat steam boat.now my tongue all burn haha

thats all for three days summarize one

taking the plan of hurting path.

2010-03-11T20:21:00.002+08:00

i am taking a path that hurts
but that's my decision nobody would interrupt it.

today was a fairytale.by Taylor swift
i hope that everyday is fairy tale as i wake up one fine day it will be a"new"me,
drop all those crap return to wad i used to be.

meet ziyi at 7.15 near my house bus stop,den go school together happily until i reach chinese class when i hear the speaker talking again,i felt irritated.math lesson was ohk i always go to the toilet at certain time to make sure that everything goes smoothly.the next lesson was PE,we were demanded to run the whole school panas field for 8 rounds,phew that's tiring.physic lesson do file ling end up talking a lot of things with kahlidah.that was nice haha she learn Chinese i learn Malay den we when on about more adultive stuff haha

i won't hesitate anymore

2010-03-02T20:29:00.002+08:00

kill the doubts
enter the truth
get the facts right
don't hesitate anymore
and make appropriate decision

nice day.
-maths getting quiz of 6/10
-social studies go toilet handling business
-English oral presentation mine is done
-recess
-pc/ls sexual educ
-CME sexual educ

after school,i went to kopitiam accompany sherlyn eat lunch she say she hungry
den go her hse play poker awhile den start watching 老师嫁老大.

很难过。。

2010-02-26T15:06:00.003+08:00

life sucks
CCA sucks
family dun understand me
friends?betraying what's friend?
love?no matter how much i work for it i will still pain
很难过,很难过,很难过,很难过,很难过,很难过,很难过,很难过,很难过,很难过,很难过,很难过!!!!!!
study?slacking
i just hate what i am born with.i should not even exist in this world
what left for me is nothing...
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I LOVE CHINGAY!!!!

2010-02-21T18:46:00.001+08:00

start everything from yesterday i was suppose to go chingay (last day) i miss all my friend i met dere took lots of photo!!next time den post haha start from morning i woke up den my head right round, right round,When you go down, when you go down down
den i go back slp till 11 plus woke up den pack get ready for guest to come my hse for Chinese new year haha
den i go down play ground dere slack slack den wait for lee jun as they are coming.
den i bring them up my hse eat den denise eat half way say full den we all talk talk.after that we go jurongpoint plan to watch movie but end up nbr watch due to time manage haha go back to playground take lots lots photo.haha lee jun phone now gt tons of girl girl photo hehe den go back my hse play poker two rounds only we stop and Sherlyn teach me how to do POA den after that my dad gave me 50 dollars for movie
treat them popcorns and more.we watch valantine's day funni show with no story line
haha den go back home my dad say"harllow,i giv u 50 dollar to treat ur fripoend ley instead y u buy popcorn u should use ur own money aiyo if i noe earlier can treat them then i comfirm treat haha

today rot at home....

last day in chingay.

2010-02-20T01:20:00.004+08:00

how should i start?after school or from morning?ohk lets make my life easier,today was a fun and tired day.tired becos yesterday oso gt chingay haha finally done with!
i knew friends in chingay and we really hit it off it is my last day with them today.den lik that lor,receently happen lots of thing thats y i no time blog
sry guys!!tag more thank you!!den we waited for abt 3 hrs before we ccan start the thing it's so irritating seating at the hard sharp floor ka cheng pain
den start already the instructor say two more girls forming with us den i say aiya sian.....
den we continue the whole thing melvin qwek wanted attention but dunnoe how to giv attention funni arh him.... lols oh ya melvin qwek told me that he ownED a car in japan tokyo haha i shall see his NISSAN the next jamboree trip to tokyo hehe
singing all the way from bishan to f1 pit so fun!!!!!

but still tired

byebye go slp =)

last day in chingay.

2010-02-20T01:20:00.001+08:00

last day in chingay.

2010-02-20T01:20:00.000+08:00

happy new year and happy valentine day to all

2010-02-14T00:24:00.001+08:00

wishing sll attached happy valentine days
happy new year to all ppl whether issit attach or single
to all single dun be so disappointing by not having any love partner/s

start to day by waking up of course
-spring cleaning
-lunch
-use com watch tv
-go step-reunion dinner
-go reunion dinner with uncles but dint realli eat much
-return home
-shou shui(just an excuse for be staying late at night without nagging!!

at here,
i end my bloggin
happy new year.
happy v' day

rewinding memories

2010-02-10T18:09:00.003+08:00

i love old class old school and old family.my life is from great>just pass>fail>U-GRADE
i really hate this everything seems unlucky to me hai~.

-meet ziyi and leejun eat breakfast den slack slack talk talk
-mother tougue teacher nbr come
-maths sleep for 30 minutes felt refresh
-physics talk with Jamie and do work
-recess as per normal eat relax
-chemistry go lab den do chemical test
-English time fly damn fast
-go back home with nazry.

now going off le haha see ya

Kill temptation to prevent addiction

2010-02-09T17:43:00.002+08:00

shall just skip to lesson math is the first lesson gt quiz and lesson haha finally understand what Mr ngiow is teaching.social studies mdm usha so so lor boring
den english go toilet den talk to denise and found out a shock news
for those who had heard our conversation with denise better keep the news to urself.
and after that was concert.from 12.30 drag untill 1.30 hai lik lor i should end here
haha

dumb-ass

2010-02-08T18:05:00.002+08:00

scolding dumb ass for nothing hhaha.today gonna start by going to school morning abt 7.12 meet ziyi go school together den play psp on bus hehe.reach school
>(i forget what lesson)
>chemistry play with apparatus(Jamie broke a pipette)
>social studies waiting for time to pass haha
>reccess eat talk
>history fell lik sleeping but control myself
>English compre test everyone was so quiet
>POA guo siang went home and wei jian thought end liao
>end.... go play with school new lift so dangerous and adventure
go home bath do work use com
going tuition after this!

happy birth day mummy!!!!!

2010-02-05T20:04:00.002+08:00

today i shall just skip to after school i go 3n3 settle things haha den go buy ice flake.i have try the chocolate and found out that the one in ji de chi is better haha.
den reach home straight my maid say"cor ur bro he cor u to cor him" den i rush to the phone.actually i was about to cor my mother and tell her happy b day den i thought that it is something important den i ans.bro cor me to come down to jp after u bath finish.den i tell my father den i was so fuck up because my father dun allow me to go
qurrel here and dere. but do my father know wad i want?this thing is just a year a time even the reunion of me and my mother oso cannot meh?i understand my father,he is oso o difficult situation so i dun want qurrel with him.he stress and tired liao me too... den fold heart for mummy.she brought psp for me haha thanks mummy!

E-LEARNING DAY!!

2010-02-03T12:54:00.004+08:00

woke up @6.15 den straight go bath was h up den pack bag reay go lee jun place.
reach dere le on comp go blog hopping den start the test.but before i start the test,
weijian came and strangely i can connect to the network.bo bian den i use other ppl connection lo haha den do the test
mother tongue>kosong
maths>100
physics>1st try:60
2nd try:50
3rd try:90
4th try:60
5th try:100
chemistry>7mark out of 45 i guess
like that lo haha later going chingay rehersal again
hai,unlocking the second prison we will be forming the yellow river haha
oh ya i forget one more thing ~we~ just wrote nasty things in someoneblog

nothing gonna change my love for you!

2010-01-29T15:47:00.002+08:00

simple and sweet day.simple because doing things that at least never consist of sian.
did things like studying hard as i failed badly in my maths test(got7/40)that broke my history record.POA at least i pass but not that good so i am just working harder for better results haha.
sweet because of chances that at least YOU gave me thanks!

waiting is happiness NOT agony =)

sweat over my body

2010-01-19T18:32:00.002+08:00

right now,i am still sweating like hell due to because today dun have the marching so we slack about the hall.den dunnoe since when i start playing wrestling with nazry.LOLS
play,punch,kick,pull,pin,ouch pain den after that play with shoe take out shoe throw here and there damn LAME haha lik this lo and we sweat like we have just finish running the whole Singapore and the heat around our body is like sauna den unbutton slp on the floor after few minutes den go mac buy drink via go home.

A better day.

2010-01-18T17:39:00.006+08:00

dear BLOG,
nice day i have today,in the morning i went off to school and jay walk across the road to buy sweet together with Arvin.den sway sway one car stop and the driver is mr razak. oh Jesus so sway haha but nbr caught me jay walk is catch arvin nbr go soccer training lols.buy sweet go back class listen teacher surprisingly i nbr sleep den recess brought chai fan den eat with lee jun den go back class(without attending the gathering which happens every recess hehehe)study history den english...(Denise dun sad).POA was sian de lor haha after school i go to the canteen play rubber band again... shoot liping and Anna MUAHAAAA hehe den go home with lee jun,jamie and liping.
but unfortunately,i take different side of buses so i pei them wait bus den go back by myself lo haha.comeback study abit den surf net till now.going for tuition.

A better day.

2010-01-18T17:39:00.001+08:00

haha!!

2010-01-13T18:47:00.002+08:00

as usual do thingsssss in the morning den go school den haha study,sleep,jokes,more but mostly tired after school stay at canteen wait for leejun den go home watch hai pai tian xin ep 11 so tourching leyyy haha den now going to off and do something meaningful=)

lazzzzziest day.

2010-01-11T17:42:00.004+08:00

well,simple day.wake up abt 6.30 (tired lo) go bath eat bread den go niua awhile wear socks go school.on the way i saw Jonathan tap and smirk at me(he is always smirking)
den reach school saw Sherlyn sis and know she is somewhere near cause she say she cut bowl so i go see.still ohk lah she cut straight instead of bangs haha den assembly go back class play ruler ,coins LOLS! so LAME!! haha den after dat reanto (i think i spelled correctly) shoot me using rubber bang den i go buy shushi gt the rubberbang den shoot him back muahahhahaa den listen to monk again.... after school slack at canteen scold that bitch(u guys should know whu),wait for Jamie and liping den go back home!!

funniest day@habofront

2010-01-10T00:13:00.003+08:00

ohk todae is flag day we go habofront with nazry,shadik,leejun/me and vaikesh.we ask the money seems to be like begging for it so funni den bastard bangalah they all slp below the void deck den we shake the money tin loud loud den all wake up den reach habofront,we go play water after eating lpay spash den nazry push me down me all wet and hurt by the floor so sharp ya go back school hand the tin go sherlyn hse wait her and her bf den me and lee jun go home =)

bo wei kong

2010-01-08T21:32:00.002+08:00

bo wei kong today i go school study listen to teacher was as bored as listening to a wizard casting sleeping spell,so go POA 2hours haha that was long enough to have a gd sleep~ after school actualli want go lot 1 sry liping i nbr come den i go slack with daren loabt 3 i went home..

brother hood.

2010-01-07T21:40:00.003+08:00

nth to post much feeling pissED off...go school by myself study recess after school go scouts den bastars here and dere hahaha and i believe that scouts is one of the subject that make my life more interesting whether issit 100 200 pumping i love it
tired but we learn something at the end of the day it's brotherhood...

tired of living...

2010-01-06T19:30:00.006+08:00

yes.i am tired of living but wad am i actually tiring of wad? idk i might be sick of family?relationship?school?personal problems ?i realli dun know but i know i am realli
lazy to wake up...i know i should not be so negative towards my life but thats wad i feel.tired.today my hist teacher said are u being neglected by ur family or u have some problem to make u(which is me) a attention seeker and i replied NO! as back then i was joking like fuck i know she was not serious abt talking that is mean to be a joke but i was thinking too much about it.whether am i a attention seeker because i do not have much attension in my family or because am i a joker? or am i too sensitive?
i am confuse but i dun live in negetive live i am still lively as usual.well,i had to admit i love my friends more den my family as the same thing will always happen come back dey will ask the same question y are u so late?y dint u cor us?wad is the use of public phone?can't dey understand?so dey think there are public phone all around singapore whye dey dun just get me a phone i always tell myself u dun have a phone because u are unique people whu have i dun have is because i am unique i myself is i realli hope that i can get along well wif her but can 1?

bloody 4 hours!!!!!!!

2009-12-18T18:16:00.002+08:00

first thing in the morning bath change to full-u without scarf to respect it,i put on a cardigan thinking that sebestian would bring me a scarf as i lost it in a compitition
hmm...end up was at nazry dere den i wear his scarf den parade lo haha in old school
i anyhow parade nbr serious siann...den new school i nbr move lo
hai after that i go eat ba chor mee den straight home.....warch abit lame show den go to lavender do passport walao waste my 4hour dere fcuk damn so long den wait till number 8163 (remembered in my brain) from 7734....500 ppl wtf haha after that go home slack with com

ehh taggED me can??!!! sian sial 3 weeks ago lik that 3weeks after still the same...
pathetic tagboard-.-

yesterday+todae story=)

2009-11-22T19:30:00.002+08:00

start from yesterdae morning i woke up around 8 bath do wadever stuff den meet nazry coz that bapok say meet at 9 den he end up coming at 8.45 zz den he called me up telling me to go down now den i rush down find him take 187 go school chit chat
den he found something that is realli fun haha he found a single wheel bike wif no handle but is panchek play laugh fall down den alvin(my senior) msg nazry telling him to go to the shuttle to pratise on our six basic knots for the competition after that embarras thing happen my pants split den scouts bro sis all laugh lik-.-.thus i go to yuhua dere buy tread sew it hai done wif it go back school
pratise den go jurong sec hai screaming eagles was veri pai seh comfirm coz their
skylon(a flag pole) fell down haha cub scouts was cute dey stared like innocent children damn cutelols
it is raining heavily bored day senior start planing games mas(my senior) kena whack by hongkah scouts 2times in a role LOLS!i whack him lik play hahaokay serious first game is knots tying we are suppose to tie some simple knots blind founded usiing one hand two partnermeaning one left one right nazry and me are teams he take left i took rightbut the other school all use both hand which should not be this way mdm lisa was unhappy as dey are all cheating den she bang the table go to the incharge tell him off haha funni den all school except one of my team and fuhua teams is disqualified including my team which i damn not happy coz i am sure if i use both hand rather den one hand i can gt atleast a second that make me damn not happy=( but i dun mind coz the other group of knots in my school still gt first haha as damn happy den ycss kao bei us damn cock sae untill lik cb lik tt sae'even u all win,u are still disqualified' wtf damn dulan if at outside we will comfirm damn her upside down manx okay. haha ovallraw we was still the champion haha i was damn happy we gt 2 gold 1 silver 1 bronze in total of 4 games camp fire was bored enough after that shout lik damn loud den we are awarded for the most enthu troop happy dao siao manx
went back home smilling hahahaha went back to slp....sweet dreams~

the next day around 11 wake up at 8.30
go shen siong market shop wif (parents) den go home pack my dusty room 6 hour clear everthing den now lik new room the rest of the dae just rott!~

2009-10-28T18:02:00.000+08:00

haha hiie to my blog quite long nbr post a thing accept changing my blog skin and music=)okay this few dae too sian to blog todae i blog becoz of YOU wake up late todae go school den on bus saw anqi and anna smile smile den change place 3 times go school teacher cor ask do the write comment to frens okay quite funny write alot of craps and stupid stuff=)
the real thing wad happen:there is art lesson todae learn about Mozart art half of 2n3 came into our class to join us okay no comment about this faiq,one of the 2n3s,sneakly put glue on my bag that really made me explode just come back from toilet heared ppl saeing he make my bag,i was so temted to eye to an eye luckily sangetha juliana and frens stopped me LOLS most of the ppl sae 'just whack lah dun care!'okay....i did nt whack okay reason is he is too tall to handle and i dun wanna find trouble due to some reason that i dun wan to explain was pull to see miss nathan den lucky i did not gt any trouble phew... after that science watch matildah than go home straight use com play lame game chat tts all fer the dae as life go on,i just fell in love with MUSIC

staying at home ROTTING .

2009-10-20T01:06:00.000+08:00

okay todae everything is at home its boring,seems like i hab been sick of hse okay wish tt i could faster go back school becoz i LOVE SCHOOLING okay no more craps
1st thing in the morning did nth wait wait den watch television ai ya no show den continue slping (awhile) tell u veri easy discribe todae its is just everydae just huggED the television hehe getting quite excited as tmr can gt back result wad the **** hehe den blog at nite around 1plus kk go le byebye

2009-10-18T18:09:00.000+08:00

okay.todae is my first time publish a blog maybe my story might not be too interesting
but if u comment on my English i will improve de =) but firstly i hab to thank jamie and denise for helping me in the blog and ya ty sherlyn too as she was the first person who wanted to help haha ty okay back to my stories todae done nth wake up in the morning with one opening eye go brushteeth blah blah blah den go out early in the morning to bugis dere pray.....but i not monk arh den go shop shop in OG okay quite crowded the weather is already veri hot and argg cant describe it after that did nth go back hse play use com awhile go imm eat the hor fun=) den go back home see see do nth den go slp lo tts all hehe realli hab to thank denise and jamie fer helping ^^=

harllows!

I can't get over you .

Stop hesitating !

我不配 。

*hi bye day

A little too not over you..

I used to be lovedrunk.

my heart live for study,end for loving.

I think 2 years is enough,time to add a full stop.

Another piece of memories.

If i'm gonna die tommorow.

happy birthday,jamie chua min yeeeeee!

happy birthday!

maybe it's true,i can't live without you.

karate!!!!! me.

if you hate me,just hate me to the core!

stop all suffering,get some gathering.

Is this coincidence or a myth?

sherlyn,this is love =)

你回来的第七天♥

没有你的第六天♥

没有你的第五天♥

没有你的第四天♥

想你的第三天♥

想你的第二天♥

想你的第一天♥

一半。(half)

Off to venture.

Drifted to the past.

Slippery when wet,miss when love.

The chronicles of life and death:Failure.

so wrong,it's right.

six feet under the stars.

The west side of my life.

thought through.

Sara,sayonara..

you can trust me on what i say!

maybe it's just me

back from camp =)

taking the plan of hurting path.

i won't hesitate anymore

很难过。。

I LOVE CHINGAY!!!!

last day in chingay.

last day in chingay.

last day in chingay.

happy new year and happy valentine day to all

rewinding memories

Kill temptation to prevent addiction

dumb-ass

happy birth day mummy!!!!!

E-LEARNING DAY!!

nothing gonna change my love for you!

sweat over my body

A better day.

A better day.

haha!!

lazzzzziest day.

funniest day@habofront

bo wei kong

brother hood.

tired of living...

bloody 4 hours!!!!!!!

yesterday+todae story=)

staying at home ROTTING *.*

我不配。

staying at home ROTTING .